Simple Pleasures

Nail Polish: I love my new nail polish! It's a pretty, shimmery nude-pink color, and it was only a dollar. I love buying things that are cheap yet high quality. They haven't chipped yet! I feel like I'm 10 again.




New Frames: I also like my new Channel glasses from my Auntie. I don't even like the fact that they're Channel, but rather I like the pretty colors of the glasses. It's like a speckled almost leopard print color, and it makes me feel fierce. Meeeeeee-ow!




Blush: I like looking at blush. I don't even wear blush that much, but I just like the millions of colors that blush comes in. Like if you want to look sultry, you can wear a dark burnt-brick color to jazz up your face. But if you want to look simple, you can wear a peachy-keen color and it will set you in the perfect mood. I think I just like things that come in different colors in general.




Korean Food and Good Friends: I can't even begin to explain how many times a week I crave korean bbq, but aside from Korean Bbq, I crave good friends that can cook it too! I love going to Elis' place and cooking food with her. I look forward to it each time, and it makes me so happy! OH and KIMCHEE. I freakin' love Kimchee; it's reedonkulous.




Painting: I like painting. Specifically, trees and nature and anything with the color blue. I have 10 tubes of varying shades of blue in my paint collection and maybe 3-4 pink/red colors. I am definitely a tom-boy in that respect.





Sprinkles Cupcakes: I definitely have the biggest sweet tooth. I love cupcakes and chocolate and anything that will give me a million cavities. One thing in specific: Sprinkles Cupcakes. Yes they are pricey: $3-4 a cupcake, but they are SO worth it. Every single time I bite into one, I'm reminded why it was so worth that extra dollar.




Makeup: I don't wear makeup that much, but I like to collect it. I think it's fun to have so many possibilities when it comes to changing your look! You can look simple one day or super sultry the next depending on what eyeshadow or lip gloss you wear. I don't like to admit it to people, but I love playing dress up.








Water: I know this sounds weird, but ever since I was little, I've been fascinated by water-- oceans, pools, lakes, ponds, fish tanks. You name it, and I'll most likely like it. I think water is so refreshing. If I could, I would be a mermaid.

Body Image and Food

My 2 cents about food and fat and health.

For the past few months, I have been eating anything and everything in sight. Anything I crave, I'll eat because I can. I realized how liberating it is not to hate your body for being the way it is. God created me a curvy size 5 and not an anorexic size 0 for a reason. I was made in His image, so maybe God has some hips too! The only times, then, that I feel insecure is when I'm around other insecure girls because they care so damn much about how they look. When a girlfriend of mine criticizes her hips for being "too fat" even though she is skinnier than me, it makes me feel like there's something wrong with me because I am obviously two sizes bigger than her. She must think I'm the fucking lock-nest monster or something if she thinks she's fat. That is why I can't stand being around people who constantly remind me that being skinny is how everyone should be. I've battled anorexia and bulimia in the past, and those were the worst years of my life. I woke up every morning wanting to cut pieces of my stomach off because I was so unsatisfied with the way I looked. Granted, I am not 110% comfortable with the way I look now, but I am progressing there. I am finding freedom in myself, in the way I look, and my passion for food. I love to eat! I love to try new foods. I enjoy it so much and to have someone imply that I'm too "chubby" to eat it pisses me off. I haven't woken up in the morning hating myself for so long and I don't plan to ever again. I just hope that I can stay around people that are positive enough not to suck me into the mind-set that there is something wrong with me because I am curvy. I hate comparing myself to other girls or having them compare themselves to me. I hate insecurity.

On the other hand, health is still very important. I have to remind myself that although I love to eat, I should also be eating healthy. I don't want to die of a heart attack at 21 for over-indulging myself in fatty foods! It is okay to splurge, but I have to know my limit as well. I'm still working on the exercise bit though because I honestly hate going to the gym. I hate the smelly, sweaty people that run next to me and my 5th grade insecurities that rise to the surface again. I always have this phobia that people at the gym are watching me work out and judging me because I'm fat. (Probably because in the 5th grade, I was never able to perform well in P.E. because I was fat and all the kids made fun of me) Sigh. One day, God. One day I will be able to get over it. Until then, I need to eat healthy so that I don't have to force myself to go to the gym. Oh, the irony!

Either way though, I am learning to love me. God loves me, so I need to love me and all that I am-- curvy hips, thick thighs, big bosom, a squishy tum tum and squishy arms that will never unsquish itself ever. Yay.

Craving

I have been craving this forever:




I am either going to..
a) make this
b) buy this
OR
c) do both one right after the other.


Ingredients:
1 dungenous crab
2 eggs
1 cup of basil
2 stalks of scallion
6 cloves of garlic
1 tomatoe
2 tablespoons of chopped ginger
2 tablespoons of Vietnamese shrimp paste
1 tablespoon of San Cha Sauce or Satay Sauce
2 tablespoons of sesame oil
1 table spoon of rice wine
(30 minutes cook time incl. prep)





I love food. Food makes me so happy!

Squish Me

I know this has been a bad week for my body when I have to unbutton my pants to sit down. Although, mentally I am quite happy.

Remnants of my overindulgent weekend:


Shik Do Rak is comproble to Chut Som Gol. Not enough side dishes for the $$ spent.



Welcome to a heart attack.



Kimchee makes the world go 'round.



They did not have my favorite soy sauce mixture from Chut Som Gol. Sad face.



But they did have high quality meat!



Mmm. Delicious.



But mind you, this was only Sunday night's dinner. I had sushi a few hours before that for lunch. Then on Monday, I had MORE Korean BBQ at my friend Elis' house-- home made of course. And the following day, I had Sprinkles Cupcakes.

I think I gained 10 pounds this weekend. Ouch.

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